Well, I know for me and my family, this March has truly been a month of madness.
I feel like one bad thing has been happening after the next. I've been finding myself in complaint and vulnerable this month. At the beginning of the month is when I found out my baseball of a cyst (words from the doctor) had arrived. It has been a painful, sad, frustrating situation for me- and definitely for Cam, as he has been helping me through it. Last week when I was on my way for another check up to see if I need to get surgery to remove the cyst, I got rear ended. I was pretty shaken up, and Cam came to my rescue.
Ya know, I could go on and on about the pain I've been in, or this or that- but the main reason I am bringing this up, is because it has really made me think a lot. It has really humbled me. After I got rear ended, I was super upset, and frustrated. Later that day, I realized how blessed I am. I am so blessed because I was OK after the accident. I am so blessed because my cyst isn't deadly or cancerous. I am so blessed because I have a husband who comes to me in any moment of need, who gets up in the middle of the night while I'm crying in need of pain pills.
My heart has been aching so much this month, not just because I have definitely used up my 3 strikes with my baseball cyst or being scared to take the pain pills because they make me barf- but because so many people I love have been going through so much more pain than me this month. What is it with March this year?
I hope to only grow stronger from the trials and challenges that I go through. Although, we all know how much easier said than done that is. Lucky for me, I have the most strong people in my life that set that example for me.
I have a sister in law who takes on 5 kids every moment of every day, from taking the twins to the dentist or problems potty training- and she does it with grace. I have a sister in law whose In Vitro didn't take, after all of the pain- discipline- and trips to the ER she had to go through- and yet she is filled with strength, wisdom and Christ in her spirit. I have a sister who spends every day with forty 12 year olds- crazy 12 year olds, and yet never fails to wake up each morning and fulfill her job and duty to educate those kids. I have a sister in law who has conquered multiple kidney stones WHILE she is pregnant and having complications- and still puts other peoples problems and worries before hers. I have a cousin who has one physically painful problem after the next- yet you would never know, because she is always smiling and making sure those around her are happy and healthy. I have a cousin who has been through hell and back, and is raising 2 beautiful girls that will grow up and do amazing things.
I have a mother who is the strongest person I know. No matter what comes her way, she handles it with pure finesse. It is because of her, I am able to get through all of the things that I go through. Why? Because she always directs people straight to Christ. I have never met someone with so much faith. I truly hope that I can be like her one day.
The thing that all of these women have in common that has touched me, is that they all go through each day and each trial- with faith.
All of my little hearts prayers go out to all of my family who have been hurting in some way. Hopefully April will bring better days!
I'm so thankful for all the wonderful people that I have in my life, to get me through the hard times. The pain. The sadness and the loss.
Oh, the things women endure. Thank you for listening in. Sorry for such a deep post.
Love you all.